I've open this same link over and over again, but the same blank screen leers back at me. Compose flashes in the corner, but nothing is ever typed in to the glaring white. And as my fingers teetert-tooter, hovering over the keys, my mind stretches to its corners pulling in vain for some memory, some moment to grasp and decipher. and my mind, she spins and screams as vicious memories gleam past, scraping, teasing in its tearing pain; the maybe of a promise from sometime past. the type where reality is just too far to grasp.

lifted me up the air, high high high
felt the worlds lifted away their cares
"my mouth is clean, i've had some learning."
"I've drank my worth"
and I've learned
when under the rancid lights
when its so cold cold cold outside
"your heart is ringing in my ear"