there are these girls at school...

i'd would watch such beautiful people accomplishing such impressive tasks and yes i am lured and tempted by these glittering lights. I wonder if the personal choice, or just simply the habit and taking better care of myself, although i am very good at making the argument and escuse that i am above the superficial. But realy, how true is that?
Its the little things like taking good care of my skin. I want to feel comfortable enough to go out feeling that I am just as attractive without the make up. Afterall, make up is only to enhance what I've got, or to just let them focus on what I have going on. haha. In the end I don't want to wear make up to just go out and feel confident. It should be a choice to go out with a naked face, not because I don't have a choice. Am I really doing all that I can do? Or am I so far finding it far more satisfactory to just let some things go. Instead of taking opportunties at their peak. I can't keep taking for granted that I am another "Late Bloomer"- and furthermore, am I really thinking that at all subconsciously?

Why do I want law? Yes it does seem a bit dry, but at the same time I find the knowlege empowering. And I keep telling myself that it won't stop there.