Studying for Real Estate I midterm, CAN345 research project anxiety. = Boring Post

Some interesting lines__
she's is that face
fading from veils the pouted lips rouged pink sheen

purchase and shine

Listening to:
Blinded by the Light - The Streets

Alright, I know that this seems to be just a shroom/alcohol induced song. But I love the brit accent and their beats. (Check out some of their other songs, and guys have to listen to "Dry Your Eyes Mate") Alright, so I'm feeling Brit hip-hop. I can only listen to the Black album for so long (wicked tracks though).

No, this was not to be a post for music analysis or anything of the sort.

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Maybe what I said to the group was assertive or as just plainly anal retentive: "We're not in high school anymore" eww.. Can you remember M. Lesperance (I forget his name now,) and his Welcome to Grade 8?? What am I becoming?

I'm not the greatest team leader/coordinator. I lack in organizational skills and consistency in such areas. But I guess it may be just the drive to produce a better report gets me going into... well let us do it This way. But being among peers who are natural leaders, you kinda pick up a thing or two. One is listening to others and realizing that even though you may not agree to their ideas; try to incorporate the workable aspects of their idea in the groups plan-granted that the idea has any good merits. Second, is to not force yourself to be 'in charge' of everything. I mean you can delegate tasks, but realize your own strengths and if that strength isn't so much in administrative task, well you may just have to give up a fancy task name to someone else who is better suited to the task. I'd just give instructions on the sidelines. haha. But thirdly, and most importantly, is to not underestimate the people whom you work with and to stay flexible in any situation. Back up plan, Plan B, whatever you may want to call it. I prepare for the worst, someone not pulling their 'weight' (which is BS cause as soon as you enter the real world, who has time for whining just because someone isn't doing their 'fair share'? I mean, if I were to be doing this for money, I'd make sure I'd make it regardless. It's not proven where you can expect everyone to share with you the same desire of outcome or to even care about to process for an excellent end result. Most are just surprised with an A, others expect it, and then others work for it.) But whatever happens, don't panic. As soon as you start to panic, the others panic and no ideas come out to solve the problem. It's never another's fault in the group (that's just optimism and over-zealous confidence at this point), it how well you respond to mistakes and what you've done to make it work regardless. There are no second chances in group work or making an impression on those who may work with you in the future.

Most importantly, keep up the optimism. No one works well, or contributes that extra bit when they're in a bad mood or feel belittled.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's been a very long time since I was in a group oriented environment. Enough so that I feel anxious. I know what it's like to be a member, a follower, a person who takes and follows instructions well. So I don't want to be depended on and then fail. I need the grade! :P

It may all seem trivial in the end, but the future is only made up of the moments you make of now.


Well, I'm also scared that when I do start to work, I could get blamed for things Junior, or Law students would mess up on and because of where I am in their chain.. I get to be the scapegoat.